Ok seriously about 'all those OC's' thing [read]

I'm only saying this because I've seen the poll and 'coincidentally' was confronted last night about it. So I'm 100% sure that I am included underneath this. At least in the Adventure Time Ask Community. 
 This is basically the statement this is about

 "It's frustrating to see you have all these oc's and not develop them."

I really don't want to be mean but this kind of hurts. And it frustrates me a ton. I've known this fact for a long time I'VE MENTIONED IT SEVERAL TIMES in fact, and how upset I am with myself that I did it. But seriously - being told to focus is ok, but being told it might be good to give away my oc's is just - not okay with me. 
So I'm going to take my time and explain myself here and why I did this - I am no longer doing this for the AT community because I am extremely content at this moment and feel no urge whatsoever anymore to create more characters. Which is good, I haven't felt this since I first joined the community.
 But I'm still going to explain this.

When someone tells me I should give or sell away any of my characters, It hurts.

 When you say this, I feel like you're basically telling me "You're a bad mother, you don't give them enough attention, you obviously don't love your characters, it'd be better if they were someone else's". How would you feel if I said that to you? Honestly A LOT of people do the same thing though! - unless you have very few characters, you can't really say something like that. I can name lots of people who haven't touched characters much longer than I haven't. I assume it's because of royalties that I was confronted but that'll be later.
Basically, it's not a good feeling when you're told something like that.

So Let me just get 'Personal' here-

 A lot of people have their reasons why they do this, it's not just because they can, that they do - so here's me opening up a bit-

1.) I love all my characters. I may speak badly about how I feel towards them but I wouldn't really hate them unless I scrapped them altogether. Deleted the refs and such. But I do get unhappy.   

 unhappy is not the same thing as dislike. I do have a few characters I have not touched since their first upload solely because I'm unhappy and trying to think of ways to make myself happy with them. Just because it's been months and I've made more characters does not mean I've forgotten them. So please don't assume it.

2.) They are much more developed than you think, or they were when I first made them

 There's a ton of information you guy's don't know about my OC's that I just haven't revealed yet.  Pasts, potential, abilities, dumb kinks, fears and triggers, really minuscule details like favourites or smells - lots of things. I just want to wait to show 'em, either from asks or just droppin' them out eventually. Now, if you mean social developments or present - then yeah, ok, you got me there. But? So what? Social development isn't much of a solo tango, but I've always been too shy and forgetful, despite all the tries to not be, so sometimes other people are discouraged by me too. Doesn't mean I don't want to because I honestly always do. 

3.) I'm a very slow and easily discouraged artist

 I draw like one completed picture in day. I'm slow. Sketches and doodles only sometimes see the light if it's been a while since I've posted or I'm unsure about something. But what I'm saying is - completed drawings and answers to asks are sometimes occassional because of this and that just means it might be a while before the next time I draw a certain character. Motivation and self-esteem is often fickle. And what I mentioned on #1. Unhappy. Right now and for a while, I've been unhappy with several of my AT OC's. But I haven't forgotten them.  

4.) You know that, "I feel like drawing this character today" feeling? 

 for me, that is every day, there's just certain characters my hand will be like "heck yeah im diggin this" and many that it's just saying "lol nope". And that adds a lot of personal frustration and restriction. That might seem silly to you but there's many times I've just been unable to draw a certain something or someone one day. 

and the biggest one, 

5.) I was still looking for "my one"

  This is the reason why I was jumping around on accounts so much. Searching for the character I just loved beyond my belief, felt like drawing a lot of time, was easy to draw and appealing to me  - and just a character I could stick to. Like I've seen other's do. But I hadn't been able to find one that made me feel like that and got discouraged and lo and behold, I tried again and again. Doesn't mean I hate my other characters, I just didn't feel the spark I was looking for. That's a huge reason why I have so many characters and made more. This is the reason why I usually made royalties - because it interested me more than normal oc's, gave me more freedom and control over an idea, that's why I have a lot more of them. But if you know who my favourite OC's are, you guys will notice they're all royalties. It wasn't because I wanted to hog an idea or concept, it's because I liked having a broad range to work with, a society and culture to make, things like that. So I felt like it gave me a better chance of getting that 'spark'. All my friends would know that this is something I've been dealing with for a long time, and I've told them about it it before. 

Honestly, this is why I wanted to make an 'under the radar account' though

I didn't want to hide or lie or pretend to be someone else. I just didn't want to tell people via this account about the other. Because I didn't want this happening. I didn't want people to see a new oc and be like "Oh there goes ches again, making more OC's, this is really frustrating me why can't she just stop?", or telling me things I already knew and have been struggling with. It's not serious or anything, but it does hurt a bit, because I just want to feel good about a character, feel happy and content. That's it.


But with this all being said

Don't be discouraged by an idea just because I've done it. Regardless of this or that. If you see a character that hasn't been touched in a long time it's okay, really. I won't get upset, but don't get upset too if you see me revamping them. But honestly, every time I get an idea, I will look it up. It won't bug me if someone else has done something similar, I just don't want to accidentally copy a design or concept. And that's all I ask you to do too. So don't get frustrated because of my unhappiness.  

But this is all irrelevant now. 

*I am no longer creating anymore AT OC's.

*I believe I have found "my one" finally and I may show you guys her if you're interested.

*My favourite OC's are Nurse Princess, Bento Prince, Idol Princess, and my Shrimpres (and my UtRA), so you can expect seeing them more than the others.

*If there any OC's that haven't gotten much attention that you like of mine, don't hesitate to let me know. Knowing someone actually likes them might make me feel better about them and get the motivation, unless I'm still trying to think of a revamp or want to work more with them in general.

*I am mostly drawing Non-AT OC's now so you may not be seeing a lot of them in the first place. Again this is mostly because I'm slow with drawing and want to make ref of my X team mostly lmao//

*If there are characters you may be interested in adopting, I won't be offended if you talk to me about it. I may be willing, but I also might say no. Just don't be like "you don't love them, you're not giving them enough attention", then I'll definitely say no because that's not a chill way to ask.

*And last but not least, please do not try to talk to me about this thing again. But it shouldn't be an issue anymore because I'm just not interested in making anymore OC's for this community now. 

But yeah! There's my response and I do hope you guys understand what I'm trying to say and how I feel about it. That's all. ;;